Shiva-Sankalpa-Sūktam

OM yaj jāgrato dūram udaiti, daivaṁ 

tadu suptasya tathaivaiti,
dūraṅgamaṃ jyotiṣāṁ jyotir ekaṁ,
tan me manaḥ shiva-saṅkalpam astu.

yena karmāṇyapaso manīṣiṇo,
yajñe kṛṇvanti vidatheṣu dhīrāḥ,
yad apūrvaṃ yakṣaṁ antaḥ prajānāṁ,
tan me manaḥ shiva-saṅkalpam astu.

yat prajñānam uta ceto dhṛtiś ca
yaj jyotir antar amṛtaṁ prajāsu,
yasmān na ṛte kiñcana karma kriyate
tan me manaḥ shiva-saṅkalpam astu.

yenedaṁ bhūtaṃ bhuvanaṁ bhaviṣyat
pari-gṛhītam amṛtena sarvam,
yena yajñas tāyate sapta hotā
tan me manaḥ shiva-saṅkalpam astu.

yasminn ṛcaḥ sāma yajūṁṣi yasmin
pratiṣṭhitā ratha-nābhāvivārāḥ,
yasmiṁś cittaṁ sarvam otaṁ prajānāṁ
tan me manaḥ shiva-saṅkalpam astu.

suṣārathir aśvān iva yan manuṣyān,
nenīyate ‘bhīśubhir vājina iva,
hṛt-pratiṣṭhaṁ yad ajiraṁ javiṣṭhaṁ
tan me manaḥ shiva-saṅkalpam astu.

OM shāntiḥ shāntiḥ shāntiḥ.

Practice for the Next Five Years and the Rest of Your Life

The Last Statement of Swami Veda Bharati

Before Taking the Five-Year Vow of Silence

At the Gathering of the Sangha 9th March 2013

[During Swami Veda’s talk on 9th March 2013 at the 2013 Sangha Gathering, Swamiji introduced the practice for “the next five years and the rest of your life.” This is a transcript of that talk.]

Om
Gurave namaḥ.
Parama-gurave namaḥ.
Parameṣhṭhi-gurave namaḥ.
Paramparā-gurubhyo namaḥ.

Akhaṇḍa-maṇḍalākaraṁ vyāptaṁ yena charācharam.
Tat padaṁ darshitaṁ yena tasmai shrī-gurave namaḥ.

Hiraṇya-garbhād ārabdhām sheṣha-vyāsādi-madhyamām.
Svāmi-shrī-rāma-pādāntāṁ vande guru-paramparām.

Om tat sat brahmārpaṇam astu.
Om sham.


Hari Om

In the past nine days we have covered the grounds on spiritual stations. Stations in meditational and spiritual progress. We have also covered a little of the traps into which we can fall along the way.

I am sorry to say that today I am not going to say anything profound. Not that I was saying anything profound before.

You can ask my Gurus. They will tell you how shallow I am. They will tell you.

I wish One of Them could be present here, and could guide you personally

with Their own presence,
with Their own words,
with Their own voice and sound.

Then you will know what a Guru is.

Yesterday I had the honour of welcoming not very formally, my spiritually adopted sister, Professor Bettina Sharada. Today I have the pleasure of welcoming Dena Merriam.

Little slips of paper with questions keep coming my way. Some of them I have already answered; so just go back to those answers. Do remember: do not get trapped by every experience inside of you.

For example, people talk of ‘out of body experience’. I am a very scientific-minded yogi like my Guru. Very scientific minded. If there is a scientific explanation for something, I do not accept it as pure spiritual experience.

To me pure spiritual experience is only of ātman. Some of these outer body experiences are works of, and are of certain sections of the brain that trigger certain sensations and project them, and you think that you are flying away into the heavens.

Those are not spiritual experiences. They are cerebral experiences. Now one thing to remember is that sometimes these cerebral experiences may be triggered by a spiritual station. Sometimes these cerebral experiences may be triggered by spiritual development. Quite often also these cerebral experiences may be stepping-stones to something purely spiritual. They are not to be rejected, but do not think that you are now enlightened because you have had an outer body experience.

In my own personal sādhanā, I am very careful. Sometimes I feel that I am not careful enough. I am very careful that I do not attribute to myself any special powers and special experiences and make myself into a Guru. I am careful that I do not take my spiritual experiences seriously except the ones imparted to me by my Guru. I am very careful but still not always careful enough, as I do get trapped for a short while. But l pull myself out and as I told you whatever I am teaching you is autobiographical.

Now today’s topic is a little different one. Our organizers are working on the coming programmes. I am sure that all of you have received a copy of this small book Sādhanā in Applied Spirituality 1, this is written especially for this occasion. It is applied spirituality. It is written for the family. We are not publishing it for the general public at this time.

Your next five years and for the rest of your life

For your next five years and for the rest of your life,

whatever mālās you do,

whatever mantras you do,

whatever breathing you do, do continue these, and,

in order to avoid getting trapped by

ego,

vanity,

feeling of power, feeling of position,

feeling of your worldly station – identifying too closely with it, and then dealing with other people on that basis of your assumed station,

to avoid all of that, you need to do these practices as taught in Sadhana in Applied Spirituality.

These are not practices that you do sitting down. These are what you do in your

daily emotions,

feelings,

voice quality,

communication,

relationships.

This is much more difficult than sitting down with your mala for twenty minutes a day. Do sit with your mala, but do practice this application in your daily life.

We have a word in our Tradition, a very common Sanskrit word “vrata”. It is roughly translated in English as a ‘vow’. It is an observance. For example, a one day of fasting is a vrata. One day of silence is a vrata. Three years vow of celibacy, ‘brahmacharya’, that some people have taken today that is a vrata. So your vrata for the next five years and for the rest of your life included, is the vrata of “Shiva-saṅkalpa”.

We have printed out the mantra. There will be another printout where the mantra is written in the original Vedic language and script.

Now these are six mantras of ‘Shiva-saṅkalpa Sūkta’ or the Shiva-saṅkalpa hymn. In this Ashram we recite them every night. I grew up as a child reciting them with the family before going to sleep every night. At that time I did not know that I will be advising a few hundred people to practise it. Now everything depends on your capacity. Everything depends on your capacity. So you can repeatedly in the day renew your vrata, your Shiva-saṅkalpa vrata, simply by one short phrase which is the refrain of all these six mantras of Yajur Veda. That short phrase is the last line of each of these.

It is also in the Handbook of the Ashram, but the translation is a little bit different. In the handbook it is on pages 25-27. But I will be distributing this translation and a different printout. So when you collect your CD from AHYMSIN Publishers, leave your address to which these can be mailed. By email or in printed form. [Editor’s Note: Please use this link to download the recordings: ShivaSankalpaSukta.zip]

So let us first recite this short phrase together:

Tan me manaḥ shiva-saṅkalpam astu
Tan me manaḥ shiva-saṅkalpam astu
Tan me manaḥ shiva-saṅkalpam astu

Now on this entire hymn, I have a little booklet also with translations of some great Veda Masters. The Shiva-saṅkalpa booklet you can read that with much care and very very slowly. Don’t just look at it and say I don’t understand it, and put it away. Take your time to understand it. So recite with me:

Tan me manaḥ shiva-saṅkalpam astu
Tan me manaḥ shiva-saṅkalpam astu
Tan me manaḥ shiva-saṅkalpam astu

May that mind of mine be shiva-saṅkalpa.

Shiva –

benevolent,
beneficent,
meditative,
Shiva-like,
Godly,
divine mind.

Because you cannot practice what is advised in this ‘Sādhanā in Applied Spirituality

without applying your mind,
without purifying your mind,

this is a prayer for mind’s purification, mind’s pacification.

To make the mind one in which, not by effort but naturally, [what was that word for ‘naturally’? ‘Sahaja’!], in the sahaja way, only the beneficent, benevolent, peaceful, meditative, godly Shiva-like divine thoughts, sentiments, emotions, and resolves arise.

Swami Rama often talked about saṅkalpa – or saṅkalpa shakti – the power of resolves. These are the mantras, verses for developing the power of resolve. Developing saṅkalpa shakti.

You don’t have to do ten million recitations and repetitions of this.

Do a few repetitions at your meditation time, but during the day, just like those two other practices:

Keep the forehead relaxed.

Every 2-3 hours, do 2-3 minutes of breath awareness with your mantra.

Do this third practice:

Every 2-3 hours, Shiva-saṅkalpa -strengthening your resolve to be sāttvic so that only the sāttvic thoughts, feelings and sentiments arise in you and they become your saṅkalpa. They become your resolve.

So recite that phrase, that short fourth line again with me.

Tan me manaḥ shiva-saṅkalpam astu
Tan me manaḥ shiva-saṅkalpam astu
Tan me manaḥ shiva-saṅkalpam astu

Now I will help you recite the full first mantra. Those who have the capacity for the full recitation may do so.

I should have made the recording even before you arrived here nine-ten days ago. I was not able to do it and I kept saying ‘I’ll do it today, I’ll do it today,” but there wasn’t time, and last night I had Dr. Sanjay Shastri do the recordings so that the recordings are now available.

Om yaj jāgrato dūram udaiti, daivaṁ
tad u suptasya tathaivaiti
dūraṅgamam jyotiṣhāṁ jyotir ekam
tan me manaḥ shiva-saṅkalpam astu. 

I will not go through the recitation of all the six mantras of the hymn at this time. You get hold of the CD and learn from there. Let me read to you a translation.

 

[Note: Please use this link to download the recordings: ShivaSankalpaSukta.zip]

 

Now please remember that there is no human being on earth, no matter how much he is expert in languages and grammar. There is no human being on earth who can translate the Vedas. Yes, there are translations. You can get them. There is no human being who can render them in another language. I give you an example. if I were to start translating the Vedas – the very first word of the Vedas is ‘agni’ – “agnim īle purohitam”. The sacred fire that we burn in our ‘yajña-shālā’. It is the same word agni from which you get the word ‘igneous’ and the ‘ignition’ key in your car. When you turn the ignition key say, “agnim īle”! There is a mantra for that.

One great translator Swami Dayanand Saraswati has translated the word ‘agni’ in two hundred and fifty six different ways. “agnim īle purohitaṁ yajñasya devam ṛtvijam. Hotāraṁ ratna-dhātamam”. Nine words in that first mantra of Rig Veda. Now if I were to take two hundred and fifty six meanings of each of those words, how many translations will I do? Cannot. So just by reading this in English don’t think that you have got the translation. But here is this rough attempt at a very shallow level. I’ll read it for you –

That which travels far while one is awake
That which similarly goes far while one is asleep
May that far-reaching one light of many lights
May that, my mind, be filled with beautiful and benevolent resolves

I have expanded it to more beautiful, beneficent, peaceful, meditative, Siva-like, divine thoughts, feelings, sentiments, emotions, resolves. They are all contained in the wordshiva-saṅkalpam’.

That with which all the wise ones perform their actions
And the sacrificers perform their priestly duties and worship
That which is the unique, mysterious personality hidden within all beings
May that, my mind, be filled with beautiful and benevolent resolves

That which is the absolute knowledge,

That which is the reservoir of the mind stuff
That which is memory and steadfastness and sustenance that which is the light hidden within beings
That without which no action can be performed
May that, my mind, be filled with beautiful, benevolent, beneficent, peaceful, Siva-like, divine thoughts, feelings, sentiments, emotions, resolves

That Immortal One by which all the past, present, future
All of this world is held, that by which – through which the sacrifice of the seven priests (points to the seven chakras in the body) is extended and performed,
May that, my mind, be filled with beautiful and benevolent resolves

That in which the three Vedas: Rig of Knowledge, Yajuṣh of Actions, Sāman, the music of Realization
The three branches of Wisdom are held as spokes in the hub of a wheel
That in which the mind-stuff of all living beings is woven and interwoven,
May that, my mind, be filled with beautiful and benevolent resolves.

As a good charioteer controls the horses and leads them on the right path
Frequently, holding the reins fast, controlling them though they be speedy,
So the mind controls the senses,

This which has its seat in the heart ever moving, the speediest of the forces
May that, my mind, be filled with beautiful and benevolent resolves.

I am doing a much larger book on this hymn but I am not getting time to do what I need to do with it. Someday it will come to you, but in the meantime you can utilize for contemplation:

the little booklet on Shiva-saṅkalpa.

the CD,

the printout,

and of course your assignment for the years to come.

Then normally when we give ‘saṁnyāsa dīkṣhā’ (vows of renunciation) and confer the saffron vestments to the new saṁnyāsin on the banks of the Ganges, we give them a ‘māhavākya,’ a ‘great sentence’ from the scriptures.

There are many mahāvākyas, four of whom are very well known in the Vedanta tradition, but there are many others that I also use. I am not preparing you, to give you, confer on you saffron. Your one yellow shawl with Gāyatrī is enough, but I am giving you a ‘mahāvākya’ for contemplation.

 

That mahāvākya is “Om khaṁ Brahma”. “Om khaṁ Brahma

Om’, for this, read Swami Rama’s two commentaries. Two commentaries on Māṇḍūkya Upaniṣad2.

Khaṁ’ means space, shūnya, transcendental Null.

Brahma’. Brahman – supreme, transcendental, all expansive, absolute reality.

You can read my comments on that3.

October Teaching on Mahāvākyas

On some dates between October 15-30, 2014, I will do a special teaching on mahāvākyas, the great sentences of Vedanta and the Yoga Tradition, by sitting with a computer and you can work from the screen. My adoptive spiritual sister Bettina Baumer, at the same time, will be teaching a very fundamental Tantra text called: ‘Vijñāna-Bhairava’. [Note: Swami Veda will no longer be doing the teaching on the mahāvākyas; however, Bettina Baumer will be teaching a course on the ‘Vijñāna-Bhairava’  17th – 26th October 2014 at Swami Rama Sadhaka Grama.

There will be other courses, other programmes going on here in between the times and you can keep a lookout for the announcements, and do please encourage your friends and so on to attend these. [Please see our Upcoming Events at http://ahymsin.org/main/events-maps-schedules/upcoming-events.html ]

Resolve for 5 Year Silence

Now some people think that I am some kind of a hero so bravely going into silence for 5 years. I tell you it is no big deal. For thousands of years yogis have been taking to the vows of silence.

I have a friend Swami who has been silent for 9 years. I have a friend Swami who has been silent for the past 27-28 years and I always send people from this Ashram to go and visit his Ashram. It is about less than 2 hours from here. He is also quite physically frail and old; he had very much wanted to come for this occasion, but his body would not permit. So many things that our body does not permit, so what can we do?

I will take one or two minutes extra…

Since I have been brought up in the Vedic lore and sat with my father for an hour of meditation from the age of 4 or 5. My father had been initiated by a great yogi, but that is a different story. He was always looking for great yogis. So in the afternoon, we used to go for a walk on the Rajpur Road in Dehradun where I was born. From the other side on the road our neighbour was coming with a Swami. That was a first time I saw a Swami coming down from the Himalayas. The light on his face impressed me. The neighbour friend said: I found him sitting by the roadside. He has been in silence for the last 25 years and has not spoken a word for these many years. He had been a silent Swami. That was the first time, I must have been about 6, that I met a silent Swami. From that moment on I knew this is something to aspire for. This is something to be. The duties of life, the duties for my Guru, they have kept me going and blabbing and blabbing.

But don’t you think that I need to fulfill one wish of mine? And you all can make it possible for me? You take over the mission. You take care of this Ashram. You take care of the global network we have and let me practise my lifelong wish to be a silent Swami.

So I thank you all, really thank you all for being here. At one time we had requests from 700 people to come from 25 countries. But for some in this day and age the costs are too high, and we cannot manage with less and so on. So we have 350 from outside and another 50. So we have about 400-450 people participating. I feel very fulfilled by your presence and I would like you to go feeling fulfilled and take your spiritual life one step further.

One step further

One step further

by self-purification,
by self-pacification,

making yourself peaceful beings.

Shiva-saṅkalpa – your minds and hearts filled with

beautiful,
benevolent,
beneficent,
peaceful,
Shiva-like divine thoughts, feelings sentiments, emotions and resolves.

May this vrata of yours – Shiva-saṅkalpa – be a source of fulfillment for you.

Om.

Hari Om Tat Sat.


1Available from AHYMSIN Publishers ahymsinpublishers@gmail.com

2Enlightenment without God, and Om, the Eternal Witness by Swami Rama, available through AHYMSIN Publications and other bookstores and outlets.

3Sadhana in Applied Spirituality, Swami Veda Bharati, p. 108

Note: Please see these links

Sadhana in Applied Spirituality at https://www.ahymsin.org/main/sadhana-in-applied-spirituality

Shiva-Sankalpa-Sūktam at https://www.ahymsin.org/main/Miscellaneous/shiva-sankalpa-sktam.html

Shiva-Sankalpa-Sūktam (From SRSG Handbook) at https://www.ahymsin.org/main/Miscellaneous/iva-sankalpa-sktam.html

Shiva Sankalpa Prayer at https://www.ahymsin.org/main/Swami-Veda-Bharati/shiva-sankalpa-prayer.html

Shiva Sankalpa Sukta at https://www.ahymsin.org/main/Swami-Veda-Bharati/shiva-sankalpa-sukta.html

Download the recordings: http://ahymsin.org/docs2/2013/ShivaSankalpaSukta.zip

To read the transcripts of the other lectures given by Swamiji at the 2013 Sangha Gathering: http://ahymsin.org/main/swami-veda-bharati/swami-veda-bharati-s-lectures-at-the-2013-sangha-gathering.html

Shiva Sankalpa Prayer

That which travels far while one is awake,

That which also similarly goes far while one is asleep,
May that far-reaching one light of many lights,
May that, my mind, be filled with beautiful and benevolent resolves.

That with which all the wise men perform their actions
And the sacrificers perform their priestly duties and worship,
That which is the unique, mysterious personality hidden within all beings,
May that, my mind, be filled with beautiful and benevolent resolves.

That which is the absolute knowledge, that which is the reservoir of the mind-stuff,
That which is memory, and steadfastness and sustenance, that which is the light hidden within beings, that without which no action is performed,
May that, my mind, be filled with beautiful and benevolent resolves.

That Immortal One by which all the past, present, future,
All of this world is held, that by which — through which the sacrifice of the seven priests is extended and performed,
May that, my mind, be filled with beautiful and benevolent resolves.

That in which the three Vedas: Rig (Knowledge), Yajas (Action), Sama (Realization)
The three branches of Wisdom are held as spokes in the hub (of the wheel),
That in which the mind-stuff of all living beings is woven and interwoven,
May that, my mind, be filled with beautiful and benevolent resolves.

Like a good charioteer controls the horses and leads them on the right path
Frequently, holding the reins fast, controlling them though they be speedy,
So the mind controls the senses, this which has its seat in the heart,
Ever moving, the speediest of the forces.
May that, my mind, be filled with beautiful and benevolent resolves.

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Swami Veda’s translation is from the 1970’s and 1980’s when the Shiva Sankalpa Prayer was recited as part of the evening prayers.

Shiva-Sankalpa-Sūktam (from Ashram handbook)

(Yajur Veda)

ॐ यज्जाग्रतो दूरमुदैति दैवं तदु सुप्तस्य तथैवैति।
दूरङ्गमं ज्योतिषां ज्योतिरेकं तन्मे मनः शिवसङ्कल्पमस्तु॥१॥

Om yaj jāgrato dῡram udaiti daivaṁ
tadu suptasya tathaivaiti,
dῡraṅgamaṁ jyotiṣāṁ jyotir ekaṁ
tan me manaḥ shiva-saṅkalpam astu. (1)

Om. That divine shining force which travels far as one is awake and also travels far and wide, the same way, when one is asleep, this far going, far travelling, one light of many lights, may that my mind be filled with beautiful and benevolent thoughts.


येन कर्माण्यपसो मनीषिणो यज्ञे कृण्वन्ति विदथेषु धीराः।
यदपूर्वं यक्षमन्तः प्रजानां तन्मे मनः शिवसङ्कल्पमस्तु॥२॥

yena karmāṇyapaso manīṣiṇo
yajñe kṛṇvanti vidatheṣu dhīrāḥ,
yad apῡrvaṁ yakṣaṁ antaḥ prajānāṁ
tan me manaḥ shiva-saṅkalpam astu. (2)

That wherewith all the wise ones, intuitive ones, perform their acts, all the patient spiritually practicing ones perform all duties in the battles of life, that which is the mysterious personality inside all beings, may that my mind be filled with beautiful and benevolent thoughts.


यत्प्रज्ञानमुत चेतो धृतिश्च यज्ज्योतिरन्तरमृतं प्रजासु।
यस्मान्न ऋते किञ्चन कर्म क्रियते तन्मे मनः शिवसङ्कल्पमस्तु॥३॥

yat prajñānam uta ceto dhṛtiś ca
yaj jyotir antar amṛtaṁ prajāsu,
yasmān na ṛte kiñcana karma kriyate
tan me manaḥ shiva-saṅkalpam astu. (3)

That which is awareness, that which is the mind field, that which is the holding, sustaining power, that which is the immortal light hidden in the interior of all beings, that without which no action is ever performed, may that my mind be filled with beautiful and benevolent thoughts.


येनेदं भूतं भुवनं भविष्यत् परिगृहीतममृतेन सर्वम्।
येन यज्ञस्तायते सप्त होता तन्मे मनः शिवसङ्कल्पमस्तु॥४॥

yenedaṁ bhῡtaṁ bhuvanaṁ bhaviṣyat
pari-gṛhītam amṛtena sarvam,
yena yajñas tāyate sapta hotā
tan me manaḥ shiva-saṅkalpam astu. (4)

That by which all that is the past, that immortal force by which is held in his grip all that is past, all that is present, all that is future, that by which the sacrament of seven priests is performed, may that my mind be filled with beautiful and benevolent thoughts.


यस्मिन्नृचः साम यजूंषि यस्मिन् प्रतिष्ठिता रथनाभाविवाराः।
यस्मिंश्चित्तँ सर्वमोतं प्रजानां तन्मे मनः शिवसङ्कल्पमस्तु॥५॥

yasminn ṛcaḥ sāma yajῡṁṣi yasmin
pratiṣṭhitā ratha-nābhāvivārāḥ,
yasmiṁś cittaṁ sarvam otaṁ prajānāṁ
tan me manaḥ shiva-saṅkalpam astu. (5)

That in which the hymns of praise, as in the Rig Veda, the hymns that can be sung, as in the Sama Veda, they hymns that are recited in all sacraments, as in the Yajur Veda, all this knowledge is established as the arrays of spokes in the central navel of the chariot’s wheel. That in which the mind field of all living beings is woven and interwoven, may that my mind be filled with beautiful and benevolent thoughts.


सुषारथिरश्वानिव यन्मनुष्यान् नेनीयतेऽभीशुभिर्वाजिन इव।
हृत्प्रतिष्ठं यदजिरं जविष्ठं तन्मे मनः शिवसङ्कल्पमस्तु॥६॥

suṣārathir aśvān iva yan manuṣyān
nenīyate ‘bhīśubhir vājina iva,
hṛt-pratiṣṭhaṁ yad ajiraṁ javiṣṭhaṁ
tan me manaḥ siva-saṅkalpam astu. (6)

ॐ शान्तिः शान्तिः शान्तिः ॥

Om shāntiḥ shāntiḥ shāntiḥ.

As a good charioteer controls and leads the horses with the reins held fast, in the same way, that which leads all the human beings with the reins of senses in its grip, that heart dwelling, most agile, speediest force in the universe, may that my mind be filled with beautiful and benevolent thoughts.

Om, Peace, Peace, Peace.


(Note: From the Handbook of Swami Rama Sadhaka Grama)

 

Two Wings to Fly

God turns you from one feeling to another and teaches by means of opposites so that you will have two wings to fly, not one.
— Rumi

Last year after my silence practice, I felt like I had never felt before. My meditations were deep and powerful, my mind was calm, my energy level was high and my love for others was intense. I only had positive things to say about my practice. People were surprised when I told them that this year I experienced almost three weeks of intense mental suffering. I would like to share with you what I learned from that suffering and I hope it helps you in your meditation practices.

The two main causes of my suffering were self-condemnation and expectation. Let me try to explain how self-condemnation affected me first. One of the interesting things that I have observed in myself since beginning the practice of yoga is a very strong idea that I need to improve myself, that I need to become perfect so that I can experience ‘samadhi’, ‘enlightenment’ or some other over-my-head kind of thing. I do not know if that idea was there before I learned about spirituality or if the practice of yoga gave that idea a chance to manifest itself, but that is actually not so important.

What is important is that this idea of having to improve me is based on another idea: “I am not good enough”. This idea is one of the most dangerous things I have encountered in my life. The moment that I started accepting this idea, I stopped accepting myself. Not accepting yourself is fundamentally unyogic; the first practice of yoga is the practice of ahimsa (non-violence). Practicing ahimsa means practicing love. Love means accepting all and rejecting none; that means accepting yourself as well as others.
Why does the practice of yoga begin with accepting all and rejecting none? One reason is that meditation that starts with “I am not good enough”, turns into a frantic experience of trying to become something, trying to achieve something, and trying to do something. But meditation only happens when effort slowly stops and a calm, relaxed, concentrated, peaceful, and joyous awareness remains. The only thing that you become when meditating from the “I am not good enough” idea is depressed and/or frustrated!
That depression and frustration is exactly what I experienced this year. And I experienced it very intensely. Even though I had already let go of a lot of my self-condemnation, that which is still present in me came forward in a very strong way.

There are two reasons that I was able to learn from my self-condemnation. One reason is that by experiencing the madness of trying to achieve something for a long period of time, I began to understand the uselessness of it. Another reason is that, whenever it was needed, Wolfgang [Bischoff] reminded me to stop condemning myself.

Some self-condemnation still comes up in me every now and then, but now it does not influence me as it did before. I do not know if a tidal wave of self-condemnation will rise in my mind on another occasion, but I also do not fear it.

The second cause of my suffering was my expectation. A great teacher of meditation once said that he has observed something very interesting in almost every practitioner of meditation. The first time a newcomer meditates, he has a wonderful experience; the second time he meditates, he has wonderful expectations. The point is that meditation is great the first time because there is no expectation, and the second time it is not because of expectation.

Even though I knew all of this, it still happened to me. Last year I had a wonderful experience, and I expected it to be like that again this year. It was in fact worse; I was expecting it to be better! And in this way I created an experience of frustration for myself. I was not getting what I expected (and desired), so I got frustrated.

The most interesting part is that I was realising that expectation is causing problems for me, so I tried to let go of my expectation with the expectation that my meditation will improve! It shouldn’t be hard to imagine how my attempts only blew up in my face because of this.

As with self-condemnation, I began to understand the uselessness of my expectations better by experiencing the fruits of my expectations intensely. And again, Wolfgang was there to help and remind me of the suffering I was creating for myself.

What’s more, I misunderstood my suffering as me having some sort of defect (more self-condemnation), because I thought that meditation should make me feel wonderful (expectation). A few days before my practice came to an end, I was free of this vicious circle because I realised that everything I was going through is simply a part of my development and learning process. The realisation came from that wonderful Rumi quote that you can find at the beginning of this post, I’d like to invite you to reread it. When I experienced freedom from this vicious circle, I understood the importance of mental freedom, the subject of my previous post.

With this, I’d like to end the sharing of the lessons learned from silence this year.


Editor’s Note:

Ilyaz Nasrullah has been interested in spirituality since childhood. Introduced to the Himalayan Yoga Tradition in his early teens through his parents, students of Swami Veda Bharati, Ilyaz started practicing yoga in the Himalayan Tradition at age 20. Now at age 25, Ilyaz has studied yoga from different teachers in India and Europe. Always having enjoyed sharing his practical experiences with others, Ilyaz started teaching integrated yoga classes two years ago. He kindly shares this entry from his blog with us; it is the third article in a series of three articles.

An Interview with Pandit Hari Shankar Dabral

How did you become a part of the Himalayan Tradition?

Philosophically, my luck, my karmas, and my fortune brought me to the Himalayan Tradition. One comes in contact with many traditions, and that attraction, or ‘the pull,’ towards a teacher one gets if you have some past karmas or some past relationship with the tradition, then you find the same tradition again. So, I believe this is how I became a part of the tradition.

What distinguishes the Himalayan tradition from other traditions or makes the Himalayan tradition unique?

1. It came out of the cave monasteries of the Himalayas. The training comes from the sages who have sat, or they still are sitting, in their meditation in the caves of the Himalayas.

2. This tradition is also known as a living tradition. The teaching is handed down from a guru disciple relationship.

3. And also, it is a complete tradition that does not reject or leave out any other tradition. It includes, rather than excludes, and teaches the totality of all yoga science and its whole philosophy. Whereas other traditions have not gone into the totality of it, they teach only one part of yoga. Swami Veda says it is like a frame. There are pieces to that frame, and as you collect all of them, you are able to see the entire frame and picture. The Himalayan Tradition is like the frame for that whole picture, and all other traditions are like pieces of that frame.

How did the process of your coming to the United States come about?

The process of coming to the US for me was that Swami Rama of the Himalayas asked me if I could go to the US. So he is the reason or the source, or cause, for me to come to the US. He brought me to the US and said, “Now you teach here.”

Did he say why? Or the purpose?

No, the purpose was not said as such. Just teach and help, in service. The purpose is to teach, as he himself is teaching, to serve humanity. So he might have seen something in me, or I might come back to the philosophy of karma, that it was something from my karma that made it so he brought me to teach. And so…I started to teach when I came.

Does that mean at any point you will complete this task in the West?

That nobody knows. I don’t know what it means to be done. You continue your journey as long as you live, so that question doesn’t cross my mind or, I think, the minds of one who is a real teacher. It’s just serving. So there is no ‘done’ as such in any place. I still go to many places in the world and teach. I am part of those places and feel a connection to them and the family of students in each place. So if I go somewhere I am serving in the same tradition with the same manner and the same capacity, no matter the location.

How have you seen, in your life specifically, how coming to the West has changed your practice and your outlook on the Himalayan Tradition?

This question has two parts.

Number one, yes, coming to the US, coming to the West, gives you a broad, or a total picture, of where you were before. You are in the West, so you begin to understand Western philosophy and Western culture. It indeed broadens your vision and broadens your understanding because you are in a totally different culture and accepting and adapting the ways and the manners in which you will conduct yourself. And you are here to teach, so you need to understand some of the philosophy and the culture in order to teach it. In that way, yes, I have changed and broadened my vision or understanding to be prepared to teach in the West the way the Western style is.

However, it didn’t change my view of the Himalayan Tradition. It is the same whether you go to the East, West, North, South, or wherever you go. The teachings are the same. The only thing is, how you deliver the teaching may differ depending on where you are. So in Asian countries, you may deliver differently than you would in the West or in Europe because of the language, culture, and who you are speaking to. The Himalayan Tradition is always there – complete… and you learn from the people about their culture and learn how to understand or how to approach the teachings to make them understand and make them a part of the Himalayan Tradition. Then you are growing your spiritual family.

Swami Rama saw it as very important for knowledge from the East to come to the West. Would you say it is important to go the other way as well?

I think it is important both ways and all the ways. Like in India, Shankaracharya created the four seats, and appointed his disciples to the four seats, in the four parts of India; North, South, East, and West. So Swamiji, by establishing his institutes all over the world, was doing a similar thing. He appointed, or brought, or exchanged, the teachers saying ‘You teach here, you teach there’ and so on… Now it’s like a team or a family spreading and uniting with the teachings all over the world.

At this point, Panditji asks – Where are these questions coming from?

Everywhere… from your students.

To Which Panditji Replied

Mine? They are all Swamiji’s. I am a student myself, so how can I have students? We are all students of the Master. The Master is the only Master. We all are learning and trying to achieve the final goal in our sadhana. That is what Sadhakam means, I am a Sadhaka, an aspirant. That is why I have that email address. To Sadhaka, in Sanskrit Sadhakam means – To perform Sadhanas

As you see the Westernization of India, what positives and negatives do you see happening?

Westernization of India has a lot of positives and lots of negatives.

Positives are that, yes, people have access, and the world has become smaller. They have much more information because technology is vastly available through the internet and television, etc. Everyone has much more access to the Western culture and India has grown through that information and that access, and this is a very good thing. Like I came to the West and broadened my vision and understanding, India has done the same and grown immensely by understanding and seeing very closely the Western system or culture and adopting many good things.

However, the part that is not nice or is negative – many Indians are somehow adopting Westernization and forgetting their own culture. They are trying to become Westerners rather than ‘Indians’. So from that point of view, a lot of cultures, a lot of ethics, a lot of principals have been diluted. You can clearly see, in big cities, how people dress and act and how most people speak English now and less and less their own mother tongue. It has become a fashion or a status; if you look Westernized, if you speak English, you think that you are ‘somebody’ rather than if you are wearing Indian clothes or speaking your own language.

But everywhere, no matter if you are West or East… wherever there is positive, there is negative too. They both exist at the same time. It is then that you have to really use your mind and your wisdom not to touch or take the negative things and only to take the positive. That’s where Swami Rama’s message is needed… when he came here and built all these organizations – Himalayan Institutes of Yoga Science, he said he wants to build the bridge. That was his Guru’s message to him. “Go to the West and build a bridge between the East and West. The West has a lot to offer to the East and the East has a lot to offer to the West. So, build so that there can be a well-balanced bridge of all the good qualities of the two. ”

As humans, we receive information from our minds, and we get information from our hearts… how do we distinguish what is the Truth… to trust the heart or the mind?

It is difficult to know what is the truth anyways… whether it comes from the heart or from the mind. Whatever comes from the heart is based on feelings and your experience. Whatever comes from the mind is more rational and logical. So both can be true and both can be not true, because even in a logical answer, your emotions are involved, and even in an emotional situation that comes from the heart the mind may bring a small bit of logic. If one’s selfish notions are involved, then ‘it’ may not be true… and the same with logic. You can justify a logic that suits you and then thereby you can say- yes, this is the right thing. So it is very difficult to know. It could be that they are both true, or it could be that they are both negative. So it is difficult to say one way or the other which one is right and which one is wrong.

Pure intentions – That come from the heart – would be right.

A logic that is based on a broad understanding and not limited to one’s own justification, then it would be right decision or opinion.

What is life?

Life is a journey that one is born into to refine, to learn, to understand, and to grow into completeness. Life is a journey to understand why I am not complete and what can I do to become complete.

Why do we forget our past death and life and lessons?

The samskaras. The moment you are born you are covered with many sheaths, many black blankets of karma. You are born with the karmas, and so we are not pure. We have the chain of samskaras… and we forget by nature or rule that we must forget the past… otherwise, it would be chaos in the world. The teachings are not to live in the past; live in the present. Then, make your future brighter by things in the present moment. It is a good thing that we forget. Philosophically, because of ignorance, avidyā, we forget the past. What purpose would it serve if you were to know that you were a multimillionaire in a past life… so what… or you were a King… or any example? Put yourself into that situation and think how will that serve. Or I was related to this person, or I was with you… how does that serve this time? I do not know. But then again human beings are such that we are constantly justifying ourselves to not feel guilty. That what we are doing is right or wrong because it is coming either from the heart or mind and supported by either feeling or logic. One has to be very careful there I think. That is why we think we want to know… to justify our actions in this lifetime.

Is it possible to believe that at one point we started with no karma?

Probably… that is difficult to answer… but, yes, I think when creation began, we started with no karma… As the scriptures and the sages say – the creation, by the mind born and the thought, and coming into existence… so possibly we started with no existence. That question is not easy to answer because if we started without karma then… where were we before? Or how? It is simply answered in many texts; this is the leela that just creates… (leela – God’s divine play.)

At the point when you burn through or have dealt with all your karma, then you are enlightened?

Yes, you are enlightened or you are not bound by all the karma. That is what enlightenment means. You are not anymore in the principle of karma; you are free. Then you can choose to be reborn or choose not to be reborn. Free from karma means you are no longer bound to be in the world; you have merged yourself with Brahman. But there again there is also a choice because the knower of Brahman becomes Brahman, so then you have a choice. If an enlightened soul comes back, it only comes back for a pure reason; it comes back to help lead others out of their suffering. It is absolutely the only reason they would come back, out of compassion of their heart to help others.

Is the true self emotionless?

Self is ever free, ever pure, ever wise, that’s the simple answer. Ever free means it cannot be deluded or affected by emotions or attachments or anger. Ever pure because it cannot be affected by any karma; it is never bound, so you cannot ever put any stain on it or contaminate it. And ever wise, the Self knows the Self. It’s complete knowledge and a complete realization. So Self cannot be emotionally attached… emotions are from the emotional state of our being, which is before the Self… Emotions cannot affect the atman. You rise above all; one self-realized is no longer thrown into the roller coaster of emotion. Whenever the emotional state changes, our feelings change and are not permanent, but the Self never changes. It is the abode of ananda, so we are always feeling joy and bliss in the Self. That is why the yoga texts suggest and advise going to the permanent. Once you reach there, you will be forever sane because the waves of your mind never change.

When one has an emotional reaction, where is the Witness in that?

Self is there, witnessing everything. Self is laughing at you saying “Aw look, there he goes again.” Mind also witnesses; that is how you know “I am” having this thought. The Self is always constantly watching and guiding, but it is through the mind we watch. That is why they say, just rise above these emotions. Kids and wife and all of that is part of this. One day they are happy; the next day they are upset. It is the nature of the world. It is not wrong or right. We are simply talking about the nature of the world, the nature of human life, and the nature of the body, the breath, and the mind. And then in the mind, the emotions and the parts of the mind that everybody is affected by. It may be more or less depending on where one is in their journey, but everyone who has prana is affected by it unless one is a Master or Self-realized. And that is why they say to go toward self-realization –  because that Master is completely happy. It is the emotions and their changes that decrease your happiness. This understanding doesn’t come by listening or reading. It only comes by meditation and contemplation and turning inward. That’s why a lot of people will hear me say this, or hear this, and intellectually understand it… but will they do something about it? Will it change their lives?

They don’t because it takes true practice and experience to KNOW. Everyone can give a nice lecture about it, but as the Bhagavad Gita says, even the wise ones are confused… even the wise ones behave exactly the same as one who is not wise. Wise means knowledgeable of the scriptures, of the technology of the philosophy, and all of that. Meanings, and quotations one knows, but really knowing is Self. Knowing who you really are…Self.

Like the quote from Swami Rama… “The greatest book to study is your Self” and then you will know. .. He says, “The interesting part of this manuscript of so-called life is the beginning and the end pages are missing… you only have the middle pages with you. You don’t know where it began and you don’t know where it will end… you have the book, but it’s incomplete… you carry the middle pages of this life… you no longer have the past and you don’t know the future.” Study the Self.

What is the Universal Power?

Universal power is identical… Universal power is unity, friendship, love, commitment, and growth. What I mean by this is that the powers that are in everybody and part of everyone’s nature no matter where one comes from; exist in everyone. They are universal. The powers that are the nature of human beings and which are: to be compassionate, to help each other, to give, and to forgive. Those are the True nature of the Self and they exist in every human being. And then the question comes, why does everyone then act differently? That is their ego.

Ahimsa. If your truth will cause violence in someone else, is it a violent act to tell them?

Yes, there is a verse – Speak the Truth, but do not speak the unpleasant truth.

If it’s a truth that may hurt somebody else, then remain quiet. Don’t say it so you are saving yourself from not lying.

The philosophy is, if a lie would benefit someone else then that lie is not a lie, because it is said or done for the benefit of somebody.

The principle of ahimsa is very unique in that the definition of ahimsa changes depending on where and how you are applying it. It needs a lot of wisdom first to understand what it means and then more wisdom to understand how and where you would use the same ahimsa. If your actions are such that are hurting others, then from an ahimsa point of view those actions are violent actions. If not to do them would be hurting yourself, then that would be violence to yourself. Then one has to go deep into contemplation of what to do. If you do it will hurt the other, and not doing it will hurt yourself, then one needs to find the middle path. That is why I am saying ahimsa is such a principle that is very difficult a lot of the time. The degree, the who, and the how, all depend.

There is a small story of a hunter that shoots a deer and then he is running after the deer and he sees the deer go inside a sage’s cottage. So the hunter went inside and said, did you see my deer that I just shot? The sage says, the one who sees cannot speak and the one who speaks cannot see. This means, yes, my eyes saw, but my eyes are unable to say. My mouth is able to speak, but it has no eyes. The sage did not tell because he wanted to save the deer, and at the same time he did not lie.

So this is the practicality of the teachings. It is very vast and it takes a lot of time. You can’t understand it just by definition. You have to look at yourself and look at the other and come to a common ground of how far you can save yourself from nonviolence and save the other. It takes a lot of wisdom.

In Gandhi’s case, he was absolutely against violence, but then he was sending people, and were being shot and beaten by the British. Was it right or was it wrong? One has to really think about what exactly he was trying to do. So this question cannot be understood in a plain manner and also cannot be answered with the simple word – non-violence. What is non-violence to you, where are you applying it, and then what is the result or consequence of the action… all these things one needs to contemplate.

Is there a difference between focusing on the breath and mantra meditation?

Yes, they are two different techniques. Focusing on the breath is the preparation part before focusing on the mantra which takes you deeper into a higher level and is when meditation begins. Meditation is from the mind, so mantra is from the mind, or of the mind, or by the mind. Breath is not. They are different stages of meditation. The focus on the breath is the beginning stage, and then going into the mantra recitation, and then no mantra, and then going into your being and doing nothing.

Is there a ‘best’ kind of meditation?

The best kind of meditation is when you have reached or obtained total stillness of the body, breath, and mind. There is nothing even in the mind, only an awareness of your being. This is the best. This is a stage of meditation. There is more to meditation; do not limit yourself. Each state or stage is part of meditation and is still meditation, but the final stage is when you are free from all distractions and disturbances. You are there in the totality of being aware of yourself.

Is the desire for enlightenment or self-realization just another attachment?

Yes, it is a kind of desire, but it is a higher desire. It’s a desire that is more pure and much more. It’s not associated with negative emotions. So yes it is a desire. And when one reaches there, they leave that desire because they are already there. This desire is such a higher desire, so those are very pure, higher elevated desires.

Non-possessiveness. How does saving and setting aside for the future play into the eight limbs, into aparigraha and surrender and faith?

Aparigraha is that you are freeing yourself by practicing this principle so that you don’t accumulate and don’t get attached, because attachment is the cause of sorrow, pain, and misery. You don’t want to get into pain, misery, and sorrow, so you start to practice this idea. Slowly… to anything and everything… slowly…

Don’t give up on what is necessary to start. And then slowly, slowly you will start cutting that down. If I have ten pairs of pants, do I really need ten pairs? I could probably survive nicely with seven. So if one is practicing nonpossessiveness, then one gives away three pairs. Then slowly slowly, do I really need seven? I could do well with five and then I give away two. And slowly you minimize and minimize.

So if we are planning for the future, and putting away money, does this mean we are lacking in faith and surrender that we will be provided with all we need? Yes, this question has both a practical approach and also a philosophical approach. The practical approach: if you are still not totally sure and not completely able to surrender, then yes, you do need to save for the future and have that peace from being practical. But one who has totally surrendered, then, yes, they never doubt that surrender even. Then it is ok. Then with that surrender the consequences are such that even if they are painful, one doesn’t feel pain. It makes his or her commitment or surrender even stronger. But if you still have doubt then, yes, be practical and save.

So then doubt would be attachment?

It may not be attachment, but you get attached later… it may be that you are just being very practical and wise in the beginning, but if you get attached by worrying about what if, what if, oh the shares are down, oh I should have sold my gold, oh I lost money. Then you have attachment and worry and pain from this attachment. If for the future you were wise and bought gold because it was there; then if it goes up and down or changes, you will not worry. When the time comes and you need to sell that gold, whatever the value will be the value… rather than worrying each day about what will happen.

So stress and dis-ease could be strongly reduced or eliminated by practicing non-attachment?

Absolutely, that’s why they say disease… so you dis-ease… so be more at ease. Disease and Dis-ease. There is a close relationship. You are not at ease; that’s why there is a disease.

Yes, but getting back to the question. You can accumulate whatever it is you want, but what they are saying is, don’t be attached to it. It simply means if that which you have is taken away from you, it should not create pain. That is what non-attachment is.


Editor’s Note:

A disciple of H. H. Swami Rama of the Himalayas, Pandit Hari Shankar Dabral has been trained by Swami Veda Bharati. H. H. Swami Rama sent Pandit Dabral to the United States in 1992 and in 1994.  Trained and authorized by Swami Rama to give initiations, Panditji has initiated many hundreds of people.  He is a member of the AHYMSIN Adhyatma Samiti, or Spiritual Committee, and the Spiritual Director of The Himalayan Yoga Meditation Center, Calgary, Canada.  He is also an international teacher within our tradition.  In late August 2011, Panditji gave an extensive interview covering a multitude of questions that his family of students put forth.