Gist of Life

It is a truth-seeking query concerning the significance of life or existence in general. “Why are we born?”, “What is life all about?”, and “What is the purpose of existence?”

To discern the retort Buddha forfeited his realm and got enlightened (path towards moksha). It was the brutal warrior Ashoka unassailable expanding his realm by waging a bitterly destructive war against the state of Kalinga. After witnessing the mass deaths of the war to discern the retort he forfeited his realm and got enlightened (path towards moksha).

The deeper gist of moksha simply means liberation of the Atman soul from the cycle of birth and death eternally. This becomes doable when human beings after establishing absolute control over five senses and mind reached the stage of Nirvikalpa Samadhi. The stage of nothingness. The stage of absolute wisdom.
Cessation of karma in the physically manifested life is not that easy. Surrounded by materialistic riches galore, prompted by a bloated ego, the want for desires and greed for materialistic riches. Most human beings in life desire travelling the spiritual path standing on platform of material riches.

In Bhagavad Gita, Shri Krishna said Mind is a bundle of vasanas (subtle desires). Through vasanas bondage is caused. Destruction of vasanas will bring freedom. The mind will attain quiescence like a gheeless lamp if the vasanas are destroyed. Just as a silk-worm is caught in its own cocoon, so also man is caught in this vast net of samsara (worldly life) by his own sankalpas (thoughts and notions) and vasanas.

Shri Krishna gave lessons to Arjuna about the gist of life, i.e. Moksha that: In reality there is no death for thee. We are immortals and this body is akin to the cloths of our soul. There is a means for crossing this ocean of relative existence and attaining immortality or the supreme bliss.

After the death of body on mother Earth, whatever the residual balance of life, the same becomes the opening balance of life for next manifestation. The new journey of life manifested by an Atman soul.

Swami Veda in his book Kundalini Stilled or Stirred gave us striking lessons that we all are the son of Light and we all are light; the only disparity is different masks we put made of dust (earth). Jesus in Bible said “You are the light of the world. I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”

Arjuna asked Shri Krishna that if getting Moksha is the final destination of soul then why shouldn’t i go to the woods, take sanyas and meditate throughout to achieve it. In reply Shri Krishna said there are different paths to moksha, including bhakti, dhyana (meditation), and karma.  I believe the shortest path is Karma with bhakti or dhyana.

Om Namah Shivaya.

From Dusk to the Dawn of a New Life

Memories of My First Meeting with Swamiji and His Impact in My Life

I was about eight years old when we met and my life was changed forever! Beginning of story: It was a long time ago in a densely populated village in a far away country in the Caribbean; the day was sunny with sweet breezes blowing softly in from the sea. Unfortunately, rather than enjoying this gloriousness I spent yet another day in deep sorrow, missing my Papa and praying that God should take my life, so that I can be with Papa in Heaven. But it seemed that God had other plans for he answered my prayer by ushering into my life a great human being who helped save my life in many ways.

I saw him sitting in a chair with feet folded, a handsome smiling face of great depth and with eyes soft and twinkling. So this is Usharbudh? I said to myself, hiding by my Mother’s side peeping through the space between her dress and the other lady’s. As my tiny body stood there below all the whispered conversations about the great man, I saw he lowered his head, looked me straight in the eyes and stretched out his hand to beckon me towards him. All I remembered to this day was how I moved in a daze towards Dr. Usharbudh Arya; he touched my hand or my head and I felt a sense of surrender while my Mom asked this great man to help me. I was not getting better with the medicines doctors prescribed and she did not know what else to do for me and she begged him to help me.

I cannot explain what changed, but I knew for sure that my life was never the same. It was as if the lights burned with thousand watt bulbs, because I felt that the darkness in my life had begun to burn away; layer by layer in slow motion, leaving in its place a hunger for life. That night as I sat with members of my mandir at a yagna to celebrate Dr. Arya’s visit, I found myself drawn more and more into the sphere around him, to listen to him speak, to look at him and to follow as he directed us into meditation. That night I learned about yoga and meditation, the new foundation upon which I built my life. Henceforth, I found myself seeking to understand many things such as: to understand the various religions, about spirituality and the difference between the two, similarities and differences between religions, what it was like to live in New York City, to work on Wall Street, to become a devout person wearing a saffron robe and to have lots of material wealth.

I attended any gathering that hosted Dr. Arya and also attended gatherings that hosted men in the saffron robes when Dr. Arya was not in the country. But I could not find solace in their words of wisdom because the conversations lacked something that I received between the lines when I listened to Dr. Arya. In the meantime I started to attend annual Arya Samaj camps around the country that taught those who were interested and especially young people, about the Vedas, the scriptures, yoga, meditation and everything that had had to do with our development. We were told that both boys and girls should go as far as they want to go in life; that we have certain roles to carry out in the different stages in our lives, but that as individuals, as Virs and Viranganas we are responsible for developing ourselves as far as we aspire and that we should become fearless. I can still remember Dr. Arya’s voice as he softly guided us into meditation early in the mornings and at dusk. Those were moments indelibly printed in my heart.  They were special to me that I begun falling into a life of meditation and subsequently a vegetarian life. I lived for the annual camps and for the times when I would see “my Guru” again and a chance to listen to him. Eventually, I was nicknamed “Usharbudh” because of the new life I was living. I changed forever from asking God to be dead to asking God for a life of longevity because I was full of hope. I continued to meditate and worked hard towards advancing myself in all segments of my life, doing yoga exercises, reading voraciously and visualizing my life to the minutest details of what I wanted to achieve.

It has been many, many years since that day of my miracle, the day I met my beloved Swamiji, but I still can feel his presence and remember the wattage of electricity that lighted that room. His calmness and gentle voice and spirit still continue to draw me into a good life and to continue my practice of meditation.

Through my meditation/visualization and hard work I was successful in achieving the goals I had listed. So now I am building a new list of goals and I am hopeful that with using the same methods I did earlier I will achieve the new goals. I thank God for sending Swamiji to help me along my pathways.

Swamiji’s teachings still rest with many people who were touched by his light like I was touched. I have heard from many people and I also concurred, that of all the men whom came to that little country to spread spiritual teachings, that Swamiji made the greatest impact and that he is still loved in that little country by the sea.

Thank! You Swamiji for you enriched my life with your presence. When you renounced in order to prepare for becoming a Swami, I was lost because I could not reach you to receive “things between the lines.” I wish you peace this day my dear Swamiji.

Your child

Padmini

First Steps toward Self-Transformation

Do not concern yourself with the rewards of meditation. There is a scientific law that every action has are action; it is not possible for an action to not have benefits. Even if you do not see conscious benefits, there are unconscious results. At the very least you will develop muscle relaxation, rid yourself of tension and stress, and learn to use the mind for spirituality.

The Program

First we will describe the program’s important steps in order, and then describe each point comprehensively and in full detail:

Step One: Practice sitting in meditation at the same time every day to create additional patterns, new grooves or patterns in the mind.

Step Two: Learn to have an “internal dialogue” with yourself within your mind.

Step Three: Develop a still, steady, yet comfortable posture for meditation.

Step Four: Develop a pattern of serene breath.

Step Five: The next step is developing sankalpa, or determination; that is, establishing your will power. Before you do something, you will have to determine that you will do it, that you have to do it, and that you can do it. That is determination.

Step Six: Learn to let go of any distracting thought that comes into your mind. It should not remain there. You should not brood on any particular thought, no matter how wonderful or how bad it is.

Step Seven: The seventh step is a process of inspecting your thoughts, called introspection, which means seeing which thoughts are worthwhile to cultivate. The yoga manuals talk about two types of thoughts, klista and aklista.
The first is helpful and the latter is harmful and injurious. Helpful thoughts are those that inspire you or encourage your effort. Injurious thoughts involve thinking, for example, that you are good-for-nothing or inferior. These are negative thoughts. You need to inspect your thoughts to determine which help you and which should be eliminated.

Step Eight: After introspection, the next step is to learn another wonderful process, called “witnessing.” When you have learned to witness the things of this world, then you have become a seer.


Editor’s Note

This is an excerpt from Path of Fire and Light, Volume II, A Practical Companion to Volume I by Swami Rama, published by Himalayan International Institute of Yoga Science and Philosophy of the U.S.A., 1988.Pages 99 and 100.

This excerpt only includes the important steps in order, but does not give the comprehensive full detail of each point, which follows in the book.

Path of Fire and Light, Volume II, A Practical Companion to Volume I by Swami Rama may be available at a number of bookstores.

Brahman and Brahma-Vihāra

What is Brahman?

The word Brahman is derived from the Sanskrit verb root bṛha or bṛhi meaning expansion, knowledge, or all-pervasiveness. This word is always of a neuter gender; it represents Absolute Reality beyond the concept of male or female and all other dualities. Brahman is omnipresent, omniscient, omnipotent; it is the very nature of one’s true Self. That Absolute Reality, that Supreme Consciousness, which is never affected by the ever-changing nature of the world, is Brahman. That which alone exists and allows the entire universe to appear within itself is called Brahman. That Brahman is no different from oneself; all of humanity is Brahman. From this point of view, all people are essentially one and the same. Placing duality and diversity within humanity is the greatest loss, and realizing the oneness within and without is the highest gain.

Universality and the State Beyond

Attaining knowledge of Brahman directly from within is called enlightenment. The human mind is in the habit of experiencing and projecting pains and pleasures, but when it is made aware of the everlasting Truth, one starts seeing things as they are. The mind identifies itself with the objects of the external world and thus places a veil between the aspirant and the Reality, but the moment this self-created veil of māyā (illusion) is removed, one attains freedom. The veil of ignorance covers human consciousness on three levels: the states of waking, dreaming, and deep sleep. Unless the veil over all these levels is lifted, the light of pure consciousness cannot shine. Thus, permeating one’s consciousness to the state beyond and expanding it to the Supreme Consciousness is called enlightenment. From the heights of enlightenment, one remains aware of all states – waking, dreaming, and deep sleep – and yet remains in the state beyond – turīya. Before casting off his body, such an enlightened sage lives in the world yet remains above. He sees himself in the whole cosmos and the whole cosmos in himself. His self becomes the Self of all.

The direct experience of the oneness of all, loving all and excluding none, is called Brahma-vihāra – frolicking in Brahman. This realization cannot be attained through mere reasoning or through the intellect; nor can it be attained through mere study of the scriptures, listening to the teachers, or repeating prayers without feeling all day long. The Upanishads that only that fortunate one to whom the knowledge of the Self is revealed can experience the joy and bliss of enlightenment. Unless the student opens the petals of the heart, knowledge of the divine experience is never revealed. Sincere effort with perfect surrender to the Absolute Reality alone is the way to welcome the dawn of eternal knowledge and peace.


Editor’s note

This is an excerpt from Enlightenment without God, Mandukya Upanishad by Sri Swami Rama, published by Himalayan International Institute of Yoga Science and Philosophy of the U.S.A., 1982.

Emotional Sobriety

What has gone wrong in today’s society? The problem on the surface looks like alcoholism, drug addiction, prescription pill addiction, obesity, depression, loneliness, and hiding behind a spiritual teacher’s teachings. The cost of these symptoms is over $276 billion annually to society, not to mention the additional loss of being a non-productive member of society and the incredible negative impact these symptoms have on a person’s psychic and spiritual maturity.

But is obesity, alcoholism, drug addiction, prescription pill addiction, depression, loneliness or hiding behind someone’s spiritual teachings the problem or is there something underneath all that?

The underbelly of these symptoms is simply people not feeling good enough while possessing a poison tongue.

I remember an occasion when I was in India at Swami Rama Sadhaka Grama (SRSG) doing a 40-day silent retreat in 2004 and Swami Veda threatened all the people at the ashram that he would shut it down if people could not reign in their gossip and poison they spread with their words. He further stated for people to make amends or he would become a recluse and do his writings and no longer teach.

He sent a most powerful message about the need for emotional sobriety.

I also remember Swami Veda once mentioning that a person will not make any progress in yoga until they learn to master their emotions.

So how do these symptomatic problems perpetuate themselves? You think a thought, then you feel an emotion based on your belief about that thought—be it a bad or good thought; now your belief matches you to the exact wave-length of your emotion magnetizing the physical evidence to appear in your reality, and around and around you go going deeper into this circle of thinking. Or another way of saying it, energy follows thought and returns to its source which in this case is you, the map-maker.

Thinking unwanted, negative, blaming, critical thoughts of others or yourself only creates more unwanted, negative, blaming, critical thoughts which eventually lead to unwanted experiences in your life. Thinking healthy, uplifting positive thoughts create wanted positive circumstances in your life.

In the words of Swami Rama, “You are the architect of your destiny…and studying one’s own thoughts, emotions, deeds, and actions is the real study.” It is through thought that you design your life and then live it.

In other words you are one hundred percent responsible for all that has occurred in your life, is occurring in your life and what will incur in your life whether you admit it or not.

So, what is emotional sobriety? It is simply a state of feeling good no matter what is going on in your life without the need for criticism, judgment, alcohol, drugs, over-indulgence in food or hiding behind your spiritual teachings. It is being a fully productive member of the human race in whatever capacity that you have created and in the process feeling good about yourself.

Origins of the Himalayan Tradition

Vyaptam yena characharam
pervaded by all that is moving and unmoving
Tat padam darshitam yena
that pedestal, that state was shown by whom
Tasmai shri gurave namah
to that glorious Guru, my homage.

Dhyaana mulam guror murtih
For meditation the Guru’s image (is worthy).
Pujaa mulam guroh padam
For worship, the Guru’s feet.
Mantra mulam guror vaakya
For a mantra, the Guru’s speech.
Moksha mulam guroh kripaa.
For liberation, the Guru’s Grace.

Namah Shivaya Guru-dev satchitananda murtyaye
Namah Shivaya shantaya nitradhritaya vedase

Akhanda-mandalakaram
unbroken, complete orb, having the configuration
Vyaptam yena characharam
pervaded by all that is moving and unmoving
Tat padam darshitam yena
that pedestal, that state was shown by whom
Tasmai shri gurave Namah.
to that glorious Guru, my homage.

Who has shown me to that state,
the meaning of the word That,
which is the solar orb permeating
all things moving and unmoving
unto that Guru, my homage, my prostrations.

Feel the flow and the touch of your breath in your nostrils.  With a relaxed mind, no strain.  Only observe the flow. Breathing gently, slowly, smoothly.  As you come to the end of a breath, let there be no break as you are approaching the end of a breath.  Prepare your mind to continue the awareness.  As you come to the end of a breath, immediately begin to feel the next breath.  Your mantra or your favorite name for Divinity, let that be your only thought.  Exhaling and inhaling, the thought flowing along with the breath. No break between the breaths.  No break between the mantra thought and the mantra thought.  Without breaking the flow, observe how the breath, mind and the name of the Divinity are flowing together into a single stream. Simply observe how the consciousness has become a stream. Observe the flow of consciousness.  Continuing to observe the flow, gently open your eyes.

And I join my palms before my heart and I bow my head.
With all the love of the heart,
with all the power of action in the hands,
with all thought in the head,
I give you the love of the Himalayan Lineage
and I worship the Divinity that is within you.
God bless you.
God bless you.

Why is my respected brother [Swami Hariharananda] sitting over there?  Swamiji, please.  I can’t sit up there.

The sources and origins of the Himalayan Lineage.  The Lineage speaks for itself by not speaking.  Where there is speaking, the Lineage conceives itself.  If you wish to connect with the Lineage, listen to no one, ask for no words, attend no lectures, read no books.  Become like Swami Hari, who without reading, he knows.  He is one Swami who doesn’t know anything.  Do you believe that?

The world of realities in which you dwell and I dwell is not the world of realities.  These are forms cut out of the fabric of formless Space.  The only fabric of Space is akasha.  The only fabric of the universe is akasha, empty Space, and this, it may be the Universal akasha, the Universal Space or chidakasha, the Space of Consciousness.  There is no other fabric and all the rest are bubbles and ripples in this fabric, in this vast, incredibly vast, Ocean of Light, Ocean that is Consciousness, Ocean that is the Mind.  On the fabric of the Mind, the Mind paints with the brush that is the Mind, with the pastels that is the Mind, paints a painting that is the Mind and renames itself the universe.  On the fabric of Light, Light, the Being of Consciousness, holding the brush of Light, with the pastels that is Light, paints a painting.  That painting is Light.  The Light paints itself with a brush of Light upon the fabric of Light, and renames itself the world.

However many observatories may be put together to observe the extent and the span of the universe, multi-trillion light years – send your thought out – your mind stretches all of that way, and having traversed its own span, returns to dwell within the myth, returns to dwell within the myth that is called you.  You are a myth, you and your notion and fear of death.  And you are this Reality also that stretches out trillions upon trillions of light years, a vast Ocean of Light in which the currents of space flow, the currents and cross- currents of life, and all of this span of chidakasha, the Space of Consciousness, all of the span of oceanic fabrics of Light, all of this span of spaces heaped upon spaces, carrying within them the tributaries and the promontories and the streams and the rays and the ripples and the bubbles of life and forms.  All of this span is contained in one Bindu and is contained in one Pinpoint of Light.  The Pinpoint is too large to serve as an analogy for the minuteness of this Light, this Point of Light.  All of us, you and I, these myths, all of these spans into which you have sent out your awareness and have returned to the myth called you, all of these pasts, stretching into multi-trillion light years, futures, stretching into multi-trillion light years; all of this is contained in that Tejo Bindu.  Hence, we have the Upanishads: Brahma Bindu UpanishadNada Bindu UpanishadTejo Bindu Upanishad, opened(?) the secret teaching that reveals that one Pinpoint known as Brahman, that initiates us into that Pinpoint that is all of Light that has ever been, that now is, that shall ever be – all of sound that has ever been, that now is, that shall ever be.

This Pinpoint of Light containing Itself multi-trillion light years of times and spaces, containing Itself multi-trillion ishvara kotis, multi-trillion jiva kotis, multi-trillion god-head powers, multi-trillion soul-sparks, all dwells within Itself, by Itself in absolute, total satiety of completeness, plentitude, vastness, bhuma, completeness, perfection purnam – and within It, you vibrate.

This Pinpoint of Light contains within It all of potentialities, making It omnipotent sarva shakti mayam, the potencies of viccha shaktijnana shaktikriya shakti (the Power of Will, the Power of Knowledge, the Power of Creativity and Action), together with the Power of Revealing and the Power of Concealing.  What It conceals remains ever revealed to Itself.  What It conceals remains ever revealed to Itself.  That Revelation becomes Grace: the kripa, the anukampa, the karuna.  For this Pinpoint of Light is karuna niti, a Treasure of Compassion, trillions upon trillions of light years of the oceanic spans and depths and extents filled with Compassion, otherwise known as Love.  That Love is Light.  That Compassion is Love and Light.  That Love, Light, and Compassion is Grace, the infinite Ocean of Grace.

Impelled by the power of Grace, this Pinpoint of Light bursts, for It can contain its Love no more, and this bursting stretches out, stretches out, stretches out and becomes the Cosmic Mind, yet the Point is not lost. The Ocean of Space is filled with Light, the Light which is the Mind, the Mind that is filled with Consciousness.  Reduction in Consciousness is called Prakrti.  Reduction in Consciousness is called Matter.  This vast Mind filled with Consciousness is the Golden Womb of the universe, Hiyanyagharba, the Golden Womb.  And inside the Golden Womb, the Beings who are being nurtured as fetuses are also golden, Golden Lights enwombed in Golden Lights.  Golden Lights enwombed in Golden Lights.  Golden Fetuses wrapped in the Golden Bless—(?), ——-(?) ——- (?) of the golden fluid of immortality and being nourished and nurtured upon that fluid, on that amrita.  On That have we been nursed by our Mother.  All of this that we have so far narrated is She and no other.

Sarvam shakti mayam jagat.  Eka evaham jagatyatra.  Anya kastimamapara.  I alone am in this universe.  Who other than Me is this universe?  Who other than Me are the deities?  Who other than Me are the devas and the devis?  Who other than Me are the beings of ishvara koti and of jiva koti?  God-heads and soul-sparks are all of these. I am.”  So says the Mother in our minds.   I send my pleading for forgiveness to Mother, having said “our” minds when She has just said there are no many, only I am.  I have erred in saying “minds.”

From that Pinpoint of Glory all the glories diversify all in one Mind, the first Universal Mind, HiranyagharbaSamasti Chitta, otherwise known as Brahma the Creator, facing in all four directions, containing all Veda, all knowledge.  Within this vast, immeasurable, unfathomable ocean of consciousness-filled mind, Hiranyagharba, the Golden Womb, the Golden Fetus, the Golden Placenta, the Golden Amrita, because of the impetus of Kriya Shakti, the power of creativity, whirls and swirls of energy begin to take place.  Currents and bubbles begin to flow and rise.  The Consciousness has not yet been so reduced that you should become matter and form.  The Consciousness has not yet been so reduced that you should become matter and forms.  The whirls and swirls in the vast Ocean of the Golden Womb Mind are alive with Life Force, with Consciousness, with chit shakti, carrying within them still the ananda, the Joy, the Bliss of Satiety, nitya trita.   These are the First Beings.  These are the Manasa-putras of Brahma, the Mind-children of the Mind-mother.  These we know as formless, First Beings of Light, in a creation created without gender, filled with the Light of Knowledge, Beings of Light, filled with the Light of Knowledge, suffused with the Light of Joy, Love, Compassion, sending out and receiving waves and powerful currents upon currents of Grace as the ocean sends out currents from within itself.  And they flow within it and they return within it.  So the currents of Life and Consciousness and Grace flow in this Ocean of oceans.  These are the Great Beings, the Brahma-rshis.  Brahma-rshis, the first rshis that have emerged from the mind of Brahma carrying His knowledge, Her knowledge, Its knowledge.  These are the first Mantreshvaras, as that Brahma, the Hiranyagharba, is the first mantra, the Maha-Mantra, the Mega-Mantra.  So from within emerge these Mantreshvaras carrying the Light and the Sound, the Lords of Mantras.

The age and the size of a cosmos, the age, the extent and the span of a cosmos – and how many, who can tell?  Who has counted how many Mind-cosmoses there are, there can be?   Within these Cosmos-minds, the swirls and whirls and ripples and bubbles and currents and flows still continue forming little smaller ones.  They are Deva-rshis, yet without forms that contain within themselves the seeds of the Five Subtle Senses nourished upon . . . .

. . . . the Celestial Fragrances, Celestial Lights to see, Celestial Sounds, Celestial Tactile Sensations, Celestial Tastes.  The Consciousness begins to congeal.  The Minds begin to congeal.  The Light begins to congeal.  The bubbles that had arisen as manifestations of space become the minute energy particles, and the subtler dance begins.  And these little ones playing with each other, going around each other, swirling around each other, whirling around each other.  How many?

The forms of the universe come into being, but these forms of the universe at the same time are Swirls of Light, are at the same time the Oceans of Space.  There is no distinction between what is Space and what is contained in Space as there is no distinction between what is water and what is bubble, ripple, wave.  As there may be ripples within a wave, bubbles within the ripple, so there are minds now within minds – you might say, less concentrated mantras just the size of solar systems and planets – little fetuses.  Just as the force of a bubble is drawn from the ripple, the force of a ripple is drawn from the wave.  The force of the wave is drawn from the tide and the current.  And the force of the tide and the current is drawn from the entire sea.  So also you live the myth of being you, the bubble.  Know that the power of this bubble is only an impetus from a ripple.  The power of the ripple is only an infusion from the wave.  The power of the wave is only an emanation, Divine Incarnation, from the Ocean of Light, Space, Consciousness.  And all of this yet contained in a single Pinpoint of Light.  No one can count how many of these Angels dance on the point of a single sharp pin, how many universes, how many time frames and time layers.

The first whirls and swirls of the mind force, the first Beings, the first Manasa-putras of Brahma, the first Mind-children of the first Guru, Hiranyagharba, who is puruvesha adhi-guru, the Guru of the previous ones, and the preceding ones, and the preceding ones, and the preceding ones.  When these mind swirls choose to be contained in a body made of congealed Light, when these Mind-swirls, Mind-children of the Guru-mind choose to dwell in a body made of congealed Light that has now become matter, these Beings are simply called the first rshis, first pitris, first Patriarchs in the Lineage of Knowledge.   They may whirl and swirl within these human forms.  They may whirl and swirl without these human forms.  Without the human forms, they yet remain the Mantreshvaras, the Lords of Mantras, they yet remain the rshis, they yet remain the devas, the Celestial Ones.  And if grace so impels, they may become contents of the body vessels and their whirls and swirls touch the tiny whirls and swirls of – I-make-ever-again – tiny whirls and swirls of our minds, like two whirlpools in the sea, little one meeting the larger one, the little one becoming the disciple, the larger one becoming, being the Guru who was always the Guru, contained or not contained in a body that was a painting on the fabric of Light, painted by Light with a brush of Light, with the pastels of Light.  When that Guru-swirl just happened to touch the edges of our mind-swirl, that is known as the first initiation, the mantra that is our mind becoming, being pulled and sucked into the mantra that is the mind of the Mantreshvara, the Lord of the Mantras.

On any given planet, in any given solar system, universe, galaxy, cosmos, in this vastness of empyrean space, which with all of these whirls and swirls and pools and currents, still you will not accept what I say.  With all of these tiny sub-photons, particles of light dancing, yet [She] remains absolutely still, remains absolutely serene.  When the myths that are our minds know that nature of the Mother, then it is that the mantra has lead us into samadhi.

Close your eyes, and there is no whirl, no swirl, and all of this is contained in that one single Pinpoint of Light.  These beings of Light on this particular planet chose the ancient forests to dwell in, mountains the highest to remind us of the altitudes of the Mantreshvaras, to remind us of their heights, their grandeur, the grandeur of this Light so thick that our tiny minds fail to penetrate it.  Sometimes like a pin made of piece of wood trying to penetrate an object of steel, we sit on our meditation seats trying to penetrate into this solid Light which is also the Sea of Stillness and Serenity, which is total Knowledge, total Creativity, total Will, total Awareness, total Consciousness, Perfection Satiety.  These Beings manifest themselves as Tejo-rashis, Heaps of Light, Heaps of Brilliance, wandering around at their own free will.  Every now and then they reveal to us their glimpse, and we call that Initiation, we call that our energizing shakti-pata.  In gratitude to that Grace we receive it, cherish it, resolve to nurture it, are nourished by it as a mother who was first a baby girl and was nourished on her mother’s milk, and passes on now in her full youth the same nourishment to her baby girl, so mother upon mother upon mother.  These Beings, our mothers, rshis, wander around, sending to us streams of milk made with streaks of Light and with that of Silence.  When these Tejo-rashis, in the history of this particular, just this one of multi-trillion cycles of creation and dissolution on this particular planet, embodied themselves, they became known by the eternal names: Agasthya, Bolaha, Kratu, Atri, Vashista, beings for whom the age of embodiment is no consequence.  Therefore, Astyavakra, teaching from within the womb of the Mother.

Sanakaha, Sanandana, Sanatkumara, Sunatsujata, five-year-old quadruples teaching assemblies of rshis.  And those who have eyes still see them wondering around in the holy places.  Those who have eyes are still graced with their darshana, for their embodiment is of no consequence, just as their dis-embodiment is of no consequence. The whirls and the swirls of the Guru will continue to touch our tiny minds.

Again and again out of that vast, depthless, fathomless compassion they incarnate, incarnate and disincarnate.  The patriya, the founder of the Mendicant Lineage, simultaneously the incarnation of Brahma, Vishnu, Shiva.  The rshis of what we call the ancient past, still being born from Mother’s womb in our times and wandering the Earth, initiating and guiding, and guiding and touching, and suffusing our souls with that Divine Light, making us again into their Mind-children.  And when embodied, the Soundless Sound becomes Word, becomes Scriptures, becomes Revelations, becomes the Vedas, and when we unite with It, we become the Yogins.

Those who have been initiated by the Lineage, let them not for one moment forget this connection of whom you are, whose disciple, whose multi-potent magnet has touched your feeble magnetic mind.  Let us never cease to pay homage.  What they have taught, when it is seen merely as a teaching, merely as a method, merely as a technique, the connection is lost.  And then they have to come again and again and elevate the method and the teaching and the technique into what it’s [meant] for in its reality.  The connection through these Tejo-rashis, Heaps of Light, though Reality-made, Divine Mind, all of which, with all of its divergences, having become as the rshi in the Rig Veda repeatedly said, “Vishurupa pavati, vishurupa pavati,”  becomes manifest in many forms.  All of that dwells in that single Pinpoint of Tejo-bindu.  All of this play is happening within that Micro-point.  The play is emerging within, is sustained within, is returned to dwell forever in Eternity, in Perpetuity, Perennially to dwell within that Pinpoint of Light.

As you walk your days, as you sleep your nights, dwell in that serene, ever absolutely still Point of Light of immeasurable magnitude.

May our Guru-deva, one of these great swells that touched our bubbles, not be disappointed in us that we have turned his teaching into a mere method rather than linking, surrendering, merging our little swirls into that of the rshis, the Vedas, the founders of Yoga, the founders of the Lineage.  Let us remain connected.  Dwell in that link of Light with Light, Serenity with Serenity, Stillness with Stillness.  May the Lineage and our Guru-dev bless us all that this Vision becomes our reality and we be freed of our myths? and we may dwell in this reality.

God bless you, bless you.

I can take a few questions, if there are still questions.

Q: Last year at Guru Purnima, you mentioned that in our tradition, there are several schools, such as Buddhism, Christianity, etc. Within the school of Christianity, could you speak about the special case of Mary?

A: Mary, Athena, Isis, Tara, Quan-Yin, Dolma, Saraswati.  Human beings have created, according to their surroundings, their prejudices, pre-conceived notions, mental forms, that which they call cultural symbols.  Lotus, somewhere, Chrysanthemum somewhere, somewhere the Rose, or any other.  When this Mother I spoke of, Who loves me as She loves you – “Mother wear a blue dress today.”  “Mother wear that green sari that you wore three centuries ago.”  “Mother, I haven’t seen you in white for a long time” – Mother, in order to please Her children, puts on the dress called Mary, whatever the Greeks called the clothing for Athena, or She puts on the Tibetan garb and becomes Dolma, puts on a Chinese face and becomes the twenty-one different faces of Quan-Yin which in India, among the Sanskrit speakers are the twenty-one forms of Mother Tara, becomes the Japanese for her Japanese children.  And perhaps you may not know that Mother Mary in Kerala, which has twenty-one percent Christian population, wears a sari.

So Buddhist tradition and Tibetan tradition and…. [People ask,] “Swamiji what do you think of Paramahansa Yogananda and how do you compare the teachings of Paramahansa Yogananda with Swami Rama?”  Mother, to please her children, today put on this clothing, and tomorrow will put on some other clothing, and three thousand years from now, all the religions that there are on this earth at this time, their names even will be forgotten, just as the names of some very, very powerful religions that were prevalent fifteen hundred years ago, no one even knows today.  But Mother will keep making her appearances and three thousand years from now, people will be asking, “What do you think of the tradition of Maitreya as compared to the tradition of our guru, or the prophet who…?”  Maybe a new continent will appear where the Pacific Ocean is.

This is the universal view of your question. And in this tradition, for this reason, the lineage of renunciation, of sannyasa, the lineage of the philosophy of Vedanta, the lineage of Shankaracharya, the lineage of the great Sanskrit scholarship, the lineage of the Buddha as we are, in our lineage – and I speak repeatedly of this when I speak in the Buddhist countries.  As my Master said the day he initiated me, he said, “We are preparing the way for the Maitreya Buddha.”  Okay?  All right?  The West has mega-bubbles of questions.  We answered thus.  I told you yesterday how the Master answered my questions in the last seven years of his life.  People laughed because they thought he was playing a big joke on me.  But no, no.  The answers were loud and clear.  Let them who have ears to hear. . . .   We have not the ears to hear silence.

It is this vast, infinite force, the mind-cosmos, ever vibrant, ever still – Tat tai jati, tan nai jati – that moves, that moves not at all, said the rshis in the Vedas.  Tat tai jati, tan nai jati.  It moves, vibrates, and it moves not at all and is ever still.  Its vibrations touch the little swirl that has become embodied. From this congealed light, the body is formed. Of this congealed space, the body is formed. But the swirl of that mind-energy and light and consciousness remains ever vibrant and that current I speak of touches somewhere within, moves the prana, thereby moves the air, and becomes your breath.

To go back to that connection, start your entrance right where you have emerged from it into the world of forms and trace it back by the same pathway.  Trace it back now.  Just feel the flow and the touch of your breath in your nostrils.  Let it not be your breath but an awareness of that oceanic current that in this form, is sending forth its rhythm through your embodied form.   Feel the flow and the touch of your breath in your nostrils.  Let the Mantreshvaras, Lords of the Mantras, send forth a mantra with this stream. And as the waters from two streams mingle together and flow as a single stream, so let the mantra stream, breath stream, awareness stream, flow as one stream and let not the stream break anywhere.  Resolve in your mind that for the next two minutes, there shall be no interrupting thoughts – only this stream.  Make the resolve and begin now. . . .

Without breaking the flow, gently open your eyes.  Resolve in your mind again and again to re-enter this stream, until you know your being as one with the Mantreshvaras, the Lords of Cosmic Mantras.

God bless you.


Editor’s Note

This is a transcript of a talk given by Swami Veda Bharati at the Institute of the Himalayan Tradition (IHT) Conference 2000 on July 22, 2000, at St. Thomas College, St. Paul, Minnesota, USA.

How can I deal with the memories of intense suffering that I experienced in childhood and in my past?

Question

How can I deal with the memories of intense suffering that I experienced in childhood and in my past?

Answer

Michael Smith

The question about past grief and trauma is a very important one, as there are very few people who do not carry a lot of heavy baggage from the past. The goal of meditation is a peaceful, still, quiet, absolutely crystal clear mind.  So, what can we do with strong memories? It’s a major issue with all people who practice meditation because memories keep resurfacing and so the mind never becomes quiet.

My own understanding of this is that the painful memories of the past will never go away – and in many cases we don’t want them to go away because our past experiences have helped us grow, and have brought us to where we are now.

Also, it’s hard to imagine how a child (whose mind is very open and innocent) can be “socialized” within any society without some painful things happening. However, as we grow spiritually, we gain a different understanding of them.

Many years ago I asked Swami Veda that same question: “Dear Swamiji, What can I do with painful memories when they surface?  This is a perennial problem for some of my students, and for me, too, in my own meditations.”

Swamiji kind of glowered at me and said, “Michael, how many years have you been studying yoga? . . . and you ask a question like THAT!”

And at that time the answer came:

Because YOU change and your self-identification rises to another level, therefore the memory that formerly used to bother you loses its grip and its power.  It’s like an insect or a plant that cannot survive if the temperature or the humidity changes a little; it does not have a hospitable environment any more.

I think that’s what mantra-japa does.  Very slowly over time, repetition of the mantra changes the vibratory level of your personality.

Right now we are very much identified with our “egoic, limited self,” and so we take the painful things that occurred while growing very hard. But when we identify with a more expansive self, then our personal history is seen in a much larger context, and we kind of “depersonalize” them.

After a while in meditation one’s awareness expands so that the past thoughts become proportionally smaller. If we see things from an ant’s perspective, then a mouse is huge. If we see things from an elephant’s perspective, then the mouse is insignificant.

Sometimes people describe this change as “burning one’s personal history.” And that does not mean than you lose anything. It means you burn your identification with memories of the past and see them with a more expansive awareness.  There is a poem by Thich Nhat Hanh which shows that higher perspective:

Please Call Me By My True Names
by
Thich Nhat Hanh

Do not say that I’ll depart tomorrow
because even today I still arrive.

Look deeply; I arrive in every second
to be a bud on a spring branch,
to be a tiny bird, with wings still fragile,
learning to sing in my new nest,
to be a caterpillar in the heart of a flower,
to be a jewel hiding itself in a stone.

I still arrive, in order to laugh and to cry,
in order to fear and to hope,
the rhythm of my heart is the birth and death
of all that are alive.

I am the mayfly metamorphosing
on the surface of the river,
and I am the bird which, when spring comes,
arrives in time to catch the mayfly.

I am a frog swimming happily
in the clear water of a pond,
and I am the grass-snake who,
approaching in silence,
feeds itself on the frog.

I am the child in Uganda, all skin and bones,
my legs as thin as bamboo sticks,
and I am the arms merchant,
selling deadly weapons to Uganda.

I am the twelve-year-old girl,
refugee on a small boat,
who throws herself into the ocean
after being raped by a sea pirate,
and I am the pirate,
my heart not yet capable of seeing and loving.

I am a member of the Politburo,
with plenty of power in my hands,
and I am the man who has to pay
his “debt of blood” to my people,
dying slowly in a forced labor camp.

My joy is like spring so warm
it makes flowers bloom in all walks of life.
My pain is like a river of tears,
so full it fills all four oceans.

Please call me by my true names,
so I can hear all my cries and laughs at once,
so I can see that my joy and pain are one.

Please call me by my true names,
so I can wake up
and so the door of my heart can be left open,
the door of compassion.

And there is another thing that happens with continued meditation, too: We learn to “let go” of thoughts – all thoughts: the good, the bad and the ugly. When we’re sitting by a river we watch leaves and things float by and go downstream. The current carries along all sorts of things. We notice them, but don’t try to hold onto them or follow them. Instead, we focus on just the flow of the river – which in meditation would be the breath, or the mantra, or both.  If our concentration can be one-pointed (that’s the trick), then there can be significant expansion of awareness into another level.

We have listened to Swami Veda tell us about the experience of samadhi, and we think that reaching such levels is unattainable for us, but that’s not true. We get little glimmers from time to time. Swamiji calls them “little satoris.” or “getting brushed by angels’ wings.” And we can experience something of that even after watching our breathing for a short time, because there a noticeable shift to greater clarity and peacefulness . . . and dispassion. That little shift that we are able to make tells us that that meditation works. And if it works with just a little bit of effort, then that encourages us and gives us confidence that if we practiced more, there would be greater benefits still.

If we’re in yoga for the long haul – like our entire life – then gradually we make changes in our lifestyle, so that there is less commotion outside, more time to practice and explore the dimensions that we carry within us. This seems self-centered, but that’s not true. Exactly the opposite happens. As our awareness increases, so does our compassion and our responsibilities to others and effectiveness in the world. Inner and outer expand together, while ego and ego-based problems shrink and eventually fall away.


Editor’s Note

If you have any questions about your spiritual practice, you may write to the AHYMSIN Spiritual Committee at adhyatmasamiti@gmail.com.

The Gifts of Silence

A sadhaka’s record of her inner journey during a vow of ten day silence.

This past December I took on a vow of silence for ten days at SRSG. I had prepared for this mentally a few weeks before arriving by asking myself to not expect anything. I had never taken on a vow of silence before and I didn’t know what to expect or how to prepare for it quite frankly. So the best attitude seemed to be one of openness and a willingness to discover what the experience would bring me.

The first day seemed to just breeze by. Not talking was not difficult for me at all, I generally like to only speak as much as needed so it wasn’t proving to be difficult at all. How wonderful, I thought. This is so easy to do. The sense of calm I was feeling I attributed to the environment of the ashram and the energy that pervades it.

I discovered that I woke up happy every morning and the feeling of joy stayed with me through the day. Wow, I thought to myself. I am enjoying this so much. It had been long since I had experienced continuous joyfulness. It had occurred when I was initiated and had stayed through the weeks that followed, but somehow in my life in Mumbai it would disappear and then reappear almost unexpectedly and sometimes over the smallest things. Now, that feeling of joy had become my partner so to speak. When I awoke, he was there to meet me and when I went to bed, he was still there.

However, this constant joy was interrupted on the fourth and fifth day by a surge of negative emotions that came up almost unexpectedly. I would wake up happy, but after a couple of hours I found myself becoming restless, wanting to go outside the ashram premises. I was beginning to feel ‘caged’. One of the guidelines for observing the silence involved staying on the ashram premises, and my mind had started to reject that.

I longed to go to my favourite café on the banks of the Ganga and have a cup of cappuccino. That cup of cappuccino had never appealed to me as much as during those days of silence! I began to feel very impatient and restless, not quite sure how to explain these feelings to my mentor. How would I explain that I just wanted to go out for a while, just get out for a little bit? My answer to the question arrived on the fifth day when I was at the Bio-feedback lab with Dr. Prabhu for an experiment that was being conducted. On being asked about how I was feeling emotionally, I started to write about my feelings on a piece of paper. And I didn’t exclude the longing for that cup of cappuccino. It made Dr Prabhu laugh and made me feel really small, but I knew I had to be honest. I didn’t know what was happening within me, but I wanted to understand it.

“Become aware of your attachments,” he said. And I realized the depth of what he was saying. It had never occurred to me before and I saw clearly my own restlessness, my attachments as well as the tricks the mind was playing. The whole purpose in this journey is to become a ‘sakshi’ (witness) and finally I was witnessing everything that was within me. The ‘need’ to go out of the ashram came from somewhere, the ‘need’ for that cappuccino indicated something – and I had to face all of this instead of blindly indulging it. I remembered how casually I treated these things in my life outside the ashram. Feel like a coffee, go ‘grab’ one! I would apply no thought to it all. But I discovered that there is a difference in wanting something to fulfil one’s appetite and doing something on automation even though the body doesn’t require it. My body didn’t need the cappuccino; the need for it was the expression of something else. And I had to discover this ‘something else’. What was this ‘something else’ that was driving me to get out of the ashram, to indulge in that cappuccino, so much so that it had made me increasingly restless? I distinctly remember not enjoying the food I was eating or even enjoying the simple pleasures of admiring the flowers around me during those couple of days. This need to go out and have a cup of coffee had overwhelmed me so much.

Before going to bed on the fifth day, I made a resolve to myself that I would not give in or give up. I recognized where these urges were coming from and indulging them was not the solution to it. I would not give in, I would dig deeper for the cause of it, I decided firmly. I awoke on the sixth morning feeling wonderful and the impatience was not there. I did look for it, but couldn’t find any trace of it. That morning I started to write and my mind started to bring things to the surface with great clarity. It amazed me. It felt as though a tap had been turned, and everything was just flowing! I discovered memories, patterns that I didn’t know still existed and I welcomed them and told them I was letting them go. There was no place for them in my life anymore. I wrote, wrote and wrote. And things became more and more clear. The source of my restlessness started to surface.

After the seventh day, the joy returned and I felt light. The flowers seemed even more beautiful than I could remember them to be. The grass seemed greener. The people around me seemed more beautiful to me than I could ever remember them to be. I wanted to hug everyone I saw. I wanted to tell them that I felt love and wanted to share it with them.

On the tenth day, I felt sorry to end my silence. I wanted to go on for another ten days. Look at all that came to the surface in these days, I thought to myself. Imagine what 20 days of silence could give me, I wondered.

Having returned to my life in the city, I find that a part of me does miss those long beautiful days of not having to speak. But those ten days gave me an inner ‘grounding’ that I carry with me everywhere now.

Even while I speak to others or am listening to them I can feel the silence within me. And I am enjoying its presence. It’s a place I return to very often during the day. I find it hard to describe what the silence feels like and I don’t think words will do it any justice. Just ask anyone who has experienced it. It cannot be described but can only be experienced and I urge everyone to experience it at least once.

Musing

swami_tat_sat

There is a theory that we each have a limited number of breaths and that once those are gone your time here on earth is done.  This is the reason that many yogis work so diligently to prolong each and every breath.  What if we were to apply this same theory to the number of words we each have to “spend” during our time here?

How many times have we said things that served no beneficial purpose to us or to whomever we happen to be talking to?  Just because we have a thought doesn’t mean that it should be uttered out loud for all to hear.  Are the things that we say something that can be heard by anyone without causing upset, anger and/or regret?

If we knew that we had a finite number of words to communicate our true essential needs, to share our love and appreciation with those close to us and the other important tasks in life, would we be as free with our words?  Would we make comments that serve no other purpose but to let someone know they are wrong?

Would we engage in hurtful gossip?  Would we waste words getting in the last word?  Likely our answers to these questions are all no.

May we contemplate the value of our words before we let them out into the world – are they important, true, kind and something that can be heard by all?

May we be mindful of our words and remember that when a word leaves our lips it is gone forever and we can never take it back.  Swami Rama said that we complain that we don’t have time to meditate; May we use some of this newly found time to meditate and create something good in the world.

Namaste, Jyoti


Editor’s Note:

Jyoti Gerlitz lives in the Calgary, Canada, area and represents the Himalayan Yoga Meditation Centre.  We invite you to visit their website: http://www.himalayanmeditation.com.

Svadhyaya

The Niyamas are the observances for oneself and are five in number. They are Saucha or purity, Santosha or contentment, Tapas or practices that lead to perfection of body and mind and senses, Svadhyaya or study that leads to knowledge of the Self and Ishvara-pranidhana or surrender to the Ultimate Reality.

From Lectures on Yoga, Practical Lessons on Yoga by Swami Rama, published by Himalayan International Institute of Yoga Science and Philosophy, 1976.

Svadhyaya is study leading to knowledge of the Self. This study begins with intellectual pursuit and understanding of the scriptures and other books of spiritual value. Rational acceptance of spiritual truths leads upon further reflection and meditation to intuitive insights and then to true understanding of these truths. These insights are supported by the study of the internal states of consciousness. Only then does knowledge of the Self begin to dawn on the aspirant.

From Choosing a Path by Sri Swami Rama, published by Himalayan International Institute of Yoga Science and Philosophy of the U.S.A., 1998.

Svadhyaya is a study leading to the knowledge of Self-realization. This study is conducted on two dimensions and not simply by studying the sayings of the great sages, or the scriptures. The sayings of the great sages do inspire and support the student in the pursuit of his practices. But studying one’s own thoughts, emotions, deeds, and actions is the real study. The scriptures and other books of spiritual value help the student, for many great sages and yogis who have trodden the path of enlightenment have imparted their direct experience, and such knowledge is very helpful, especially when the student faces certain obstacles on the path. Mere study of the scriptures is the sort of information that is really not knowledge, but only a part of knowing. We intellectually know many things, yet our ignorance is not dispelled. By self-study, or studying within and without, we experience directly that which dispels the darkness of avidya, or ignorance. The great sages, the yogis, impart their practical experience, and this rational acceptance of spiritual truths leads the student to the higher state, the source of intuition. The finest source of all knowledge opens itself and then the true understanding of life and its purpose is understood. Only when one has carefully learned the study of his own internal states will the true knowledge of the Self begin to dawn.


Editor’ Note

From Lectures on Yoga, Practical Lessons on Yoga by Swami Rama, published by Himalayan International Institute of Yoga Science and Philosophy, 1976.